I pray your having a Happy and peaceful Christmas my darling E, it somehow seems quieter here without you today. I’ve bought some mint chocolate in honour of you, always in my thoughts. Love you always your Vivvy xxxx

My darling E, by the time this candle has reached its last flicker, I pray that I will have been worthy enough to join your spirit in the hereafter. I hope it is what we hope it to be, and we are together. In grief, when you loose someone who is profoundly close to you like you were to me and I to you, your world becomes remarkably small, it’s very hard to see much further than the end of your arm. So I apologise most sincerely for all the “I” that come your way from me. “I” Hope you can forgive my selfishness, You are the best man I have ever known even with your annoying habits I love you so. And that’s why I just can’t get over loosing you, it’s still just such a struggle. Being so poorly, I’m sure you’ve been watching over me, if I keep going the way I have been I may be joining you sooner than we thought. Please be there waiting for me to hold my hand, and give me your bestest Ian hug. I really miss that. This is so self indulgent I’m sorry sweetheart, It’s Easter in the morning.. and I really wanted to buy to a mint Easter egg. They have mint chocolate oranges now can you believe that?!!! Be in my dreams my darling, I love you always your Vivvy xxx

My darling E, you are in my thoughts every day and in my heart every second. You are missed more than words can say, it’s been two years and I still sometimes expect you to walk through the door with your wonderful smile. I loved you then, I love you still, I will love you always Your Vivvy xxx